sians. accidentally deleted my tagboard posts. ah wadeva. feeling terrible all over now. throat very pain. kip wanting to drink water. drink till my stomach bloated. nose kip coming out mucus. blow till my nose red liao. n i look very shagged now. dun wish to step out of d hus. feel fugly n lousy now. argh mother is mad again. making so much noise over small matters. when will she ever chg?! wan peace oso cannot. shit her la.
6:10 PM

im feeling down n damn stress. i cant cope wid chemical process principles B. reli cant. i brokedown when i cldnt do d tutorials. even afta d lecturer explained, i still cant catch any ball. she toks too fast n assumes everyone noes wad she is saying. lyk real. I DUN! ask her questions lyk veri impatient. fuk. yes im slow i noe. hais. i wish sumone cld help me.

moodless. life aint dat easy. hais.
11:25 PM

sch has passed for 1 week. its reli fast. so fast dat i didnt noe.. sch is alrite. aint bad afta all. bud i cant stand waking up at 6 everyday. im oways late for sch! i cant help it either. i cant concentrate during lessons. im oways hving d urge to slp. n of cos i did. n i noe it will affect my studies. i dunno wad to do. how i wish d timetable cld be chged.

thur went to find dear afta sch. we went to ps to shop for presents. den went bak to kovan cos i wanted to go popular. HEARTLAND MALL. so long nv shop dere liao. last tym in yuying everyday surely step inside de. lol. called jane to come down for dinner. n her sis came along too. had our dinner at KFC. den took neos. zi lian-ning in d neo machine wid our hp too. wahahaha. TYPICAL US! xD

now im in cadc welfare com. interim for 2 weeks. afta dat its up to me to join deir club. most prob is la. haha. den fri was project com event. only 4 ppl from welfare com turned up. d rest had sth on. pathetic hor. d event was okay. i lyk d basketball shooting. its been ages since i've touched d ball. wahaha.

sat morning was current affairs com event. i hate deir requests. lol. cos one of dem was to eat wasabi wid longan. anotha was to drink bitter gourd juice! HORRIBLE OKAY. basically, tis r d few request i hate la. of cos dere r many othas bud it was alrite for me :D den in d aftanoon was welfare com event! it was held at orchard. im d so called angel tgt wid samantha. we took social com n i mus say dey r kinda enthu la. dey dun mind xia swaying demself. haha. bud sad to say sum ppl were sian. lyk ALLAN xD n sum seniors. well, luckily nort all la. lol. THE EVENT WAS A SUCCESS! ((: three cheers for welfare com!

afta d event went to gen's hus for a bbq? its nort a bbq gen chua. it's a buffet la. haha. i was lost at st paul's church. dumb me seh. den gen came down n fetch me to her hus. hehehe. had a great tym dere. crapping, acting lyk fools (horny dance, pole dancing).. LOL. d acting lyk fools were only me n gen la. yiling dey all were too refined. ahhahaha. den out of d blue, we all suddenly were finding d sex video of tammy. WAHAHAHA. dun get d wrong idea. we gers aint pervert. dun ask y we r doin it too xD n gen chua i nv suffer at urr hus la. it was FUN! (:

den today met yen in d morning go sch tgt. her frst day of sch at np! haha. hey we every mon go sch tgt la? since u oso start sch at 8am. dun reject d cute huan leh xD n i wasnt late for sch today! LOL.

afta sch yvonne n i went to explore sp since we were waiting for our frens. we walked to d sch of business to find food court 6 n see chio bus. lol. d food dere looks nice n most imptly CHEAP! we can fulfill our class guys wish. dey hv been wanting to go dere to eat. haha. n i saw mr tan kok chee. omg lor. tok to him bud weird weird de. den wanted to go see d sp guild bud cldnt find our way dere. i reli wan to go dere see d place lor. sad seh. bud now i noe how to go ler. haha.

den yen came down to sp find me. pai seh made u wait kinda long. i noe u pissed. sry babe :X den we went hougang mall eat shilin. d creep dere sucks la. damn angry sia. far east n cathy de so much nicer.

poly life is still boring. when will it be fun?
11:44 PM

sch started ytd. well it sucks la. cant get used to it yet. d science is considered hard to me. n my maths became rusty! pissed man. i suddenly feel abit stress thou lessons hven reli started. afta sch went to cls club. bud i dun feel any point being dere. oh well, so i went over to cadc. chit chat n played games. waited for d rain to stop den left sch at ard 6. on d way home dere was a blardy jam. instead of an 1hr ride, it became 1hr 30mins. fuk seh. lol.

today sch ended veri early. lyk 10:45am. nth to do so had lunch wid d class. d guys wanted to go food court 6. wan go dere see chio bus nia. dots man. bud in d end we cldnt find it. TOO BAD! haha. den went down to nyp meet sy. nyp is reli nice man. d buildings all so new. sp is OLD. wahahaha.

actually we supposed to go town buy bag bud it was raining so heavily so went to her hus instead. den we both no umbrella so we took a taxi home. $3! LOL. nyp to her hus is jus 8mins walk. haa. i decided to be hardworking. so we did revision for 2hrs for wad we hv learnt for d past 2days! cant believe im doin tis. lyk kia su freaks. well mus reli jia you n work hard sia. if nort sure die de. afta revising had our dinner near courts den went to amk library for cookies n cream! wahahaha.

n dearie dun nid to feel so left out. u still hv me n d rest (: cheer up yea. read my blog dun tag. smack u sia. haha.

sumtyms i wonder. wonder alot. bud im nort gonna say it here. i dun feel happy in wad im doin now. my life seems empty. real empty. i dun understand alot of tings. mayb its jus my imgaination. AHHH shant tink abt it. neway np rejected me. hu cares aniwae. life bores now :(
11:26 PM

okay damn long nv update liao. tues went out wid yen to get jane's bday present. we decided to go kbox first at hougang plaza before goin to orchard. bud sy say nid to return her mom's shoe by today no matter wad. so in d end ended up in amk kbox. it sucks to d core la! serve lousy food n when d tym is up dey will come in n ask u siam. wait till u siam summor. nort lyk hougang de. can sing a few mor songs den go. nv ever go dere man! NEVER! GRRR- n chan wei yen pls sing nxt tym when u go okay! dun kip making me sing most of d tym. waste urr money nia. wan me to feel bad huh? haa. dun nid pai seh one la :D afta dat went orchard find jane's present. wah can die sia. walked d whole stretch down till ps n cldnt get aniting leh. we cldnt tink of wad she lacks. she seems to hv everyting. lol. in d end gort her a bikini xD HAHA! den i met up wid ZEPHAS at ps for d mass movie outing. watched ice age 2. damn funny. mus watch! :D

wed was jane's bday! [: oh she's 17th alr. so old xD haha. morning had flag day. went to bedok ard 9am find jasmin dey all. did till 12pm. kinda fast la. den went down to raffles place to find shu hui n d guys. had lunch den went bak to sp. i collected $74.80 only. cant win d mp3 liao. sobs* afta dat sy ask me go marina square to shop for her stuffs. i first tym shop dere sia. lol. gort lots of nice stuffs dere. d food dere oso seems nice man. bud kinda ex la. mus go try one day sia. den stupid sy gort hungry n wanted to eat pizza hut bud i didnt allow her to eat dere cos i dun wan her to waste money. i want to save her money lor. see im sucha gud fren :D so we walked d whole of marina square to find cheaper food. in d end sy didnt lyk ani of it. so we went bak to pizza hut. HOW DUMB! den jane had a party at her frens place in d nite. n sy wanted to come when she dun even reli noe her. so bu yao lian. haha. d food was great! haha. thou it was home cooked de. d cakes were even betta. ice-cream cake man! den we all played truth or dare. when it was at its climax, d security guard extra come chase us out. tmd. cos kinda late oso la. ppl nid to slp. we were making a din. haha. so we all decided to crash zhi liang hus (mervin's fren). SEMI-D LEH! song sia. haha. den it was kinda late liao. cldnt go home. dad will kill me. so went to stay over at sy hus. haha. wah piang at first i tot zhi liang hus was near sy hus. in d end we had to walk for abt 30mins. den outside nyp dere we saw a man n we started to freak out (normal reaction for gers la). lol. imagine urr a ger walking on d streets early morning. wad wld happen? lol. bud of cos we dun hv aniting nice la. so ya. ahahaha.

thurs went sp for SPICE training. it was jus to teach us how to use sp website. LAME. well it does help a lil thou. haha. afta dat went for d party. quite fun la. see how d gls being tortured by us. haa. d party was to celebrate d 4 guys gls bday. i wonder y so many ppl born on april. aniwaes dere's cakes. eating cakes for 2 continuous day. bud its alrite. i love cakes! xD

fri went out wid my parents to suntec shop shop. afta dat went airport to fetch gen gen. it has been 2mths since she left singapore. now she's bak. reli missed her loads. missed d tyms we had in yuying. bud now tings seems so diff. dunno how to explain. hais. den her mom invited us to her hus for dinner. bud its mor lyk supper liao. lol. her mom reli very generous sia. bought alot alot alot of food bak. actually yen n me supposed to go coco latte wid jane de. bud in d end nv cos when everyting ended it was too late liao. so jane went by herself. haha. well she dosent mind clubbing alone wad. she gort her frens dere too. instead yiling brought yen, leg n me to liquid kitchen. wanted to hang out dere for awhile. iyah bud no one wanna buy drinks so we jus went in see see den left. how lame. lol. den i suggested goin coffee bean. bud wth cannot order drinks liao. cos its CLOSED! ass. so we went home afta dat. ZZZZZ.

sat supposed to go suki for lunch tgt wid gen. we all wanted to spend tym wid her before she goes off. luckily i called yen n ask her to meet up first before goin. den she said she nort goin n its cancelled! so heng i called her. if nort i will be d only one dere! so yen n me decided to hv lunch tgt at hougang point. sun pian return her camp bag oso. oh she's goin camp on mon. d day my sch starts! in d nite went for steamboating at marina for d roundup of d telematch camp. tell u i eat till my stomach damn bloated. i cant even walk properly. till now my stomach is still blardy full. damn i tink im gonna gain alot of weight. been eating alot tis few days. ARGH! i mus go on a diet liao la!

hv been slping very late for tis past few mths. reli panda liao :[ today slp at 4am all cos of my bro. came bak so late n dun hv key to open d door. sian oways lost his key. irritating leh. d nite was boring while waiting for him to come bak. yen cldnt slp too. so we played msn games. ahahaha. wah paing she hexic pro la. cannot stand it. i damn noob in it. tmr sch start liao la. sians. i haven had enough fun yet. i hate my timetable too. sch starts 8am everyday. meaning i hv to wake up at 6am. oman it sucks! i tink i will hv a prob slping early tonite. hais.

I AM SO DAMN FULL NOW! BURPS*
6:19 PM

came bak from camp on sat. telematch camp was fun. CHIPPEWA my grp name. so cute. haha. grp mates were great too. played telematch games. lyk duh~ lol. oso hv water bomb (bud veri short). water captain ball - SONG. singing session. guess d murder game - our grp was d only one hu guess correct. hohoho. treasure hunt - gort one station YUCKS can. mus eat food lyk bittergourd, capsicon, lemon, green pepper, raw carrot so n so la.. of cos dere's many otha games bud i lazy to say lar xD n tis camp provide nice meals. oh ya. tis camp kip taking pictures leh. first tym i go camp take photos lyk siao. lol. i tot i wld get a camp tee. in d end didnt hv cos mus go for deir 3 days 2 night camp. sobs.

afta camp went for steamboating at marina dere in d ntie wid 4A. finally get to see u guys afta for so blardy long! it was my first tym eating steamboat out. LOL. had loads of fun wid dem. chatting abt our sch n lyf blah blah blah. haha. den kip taking photos lyk siao chao bos. haha zi lianing lar :D ate for abt 3hrs den we decided to walk to marina bay instead of taking a bus. n guess wad? we walked to a dead end. lame leh. we were lyk jus opposite esplanade bud dere's a river dere. so of cos cannot cross over la. so we walked d shears bridge to suntec. n jane wrote on d highway (yuying 4A was here, we kicked ass!). LOL. may it be dere foreva for memories. haha. we walked for lyk 2hrs den reached suntec. veri tiring bud supa exciting n fun. lyk sum amazing race. haha. reached home abt 1am. dots man. hope we hv anotha outing soon. den do mor exciting n dumb stuffs! wahaha xD

today had lunch wid ZEPHAS before goin for orientation. orientation was boring man! it was jus talks n talks n talks. n my class so pathetic. only hv 6 gers! S-I-A-N! n i didnt get to talk to any of dem. lyk wth! nxt week start sch liao leh. still haven noe anione in my class. no bonding session summor. damnit.
8:13 PM

S-I-A-N~ went all d way to bedok for urine check up. lol. all bcos last week come dat lor. so ma fan. waste my tym leh! den went to sy hus borrow shoes. i feel so bad doin it. haha. will repay urr mom. nort u xD n i saw yiling! reli veri qiao lor. den we tok abt our poly orientation all dose. tmr gort telematch camp. WOOO- camps! im loving it. haha.
10:41 PM

FO camp rock balls! [: day 1/ woke up at 6am. oh my so early sia. dats d prob of staying so far from sp. assembled at mac n did ice-breakers again. some ppl were late. if i knew dey were gonna be late, i rather be late too. lol. it was tym to get into our real grps. altgt gort 5 grps. north, south, east, west wind n whirlwind. n im in east wind! we introduced ourselves n play ice-breakers again. lol. den we had to come up wid a grp name n cheers. ZEPHAS. wad do u tink? cool eh. lol. i tink d name is special. lucky my grp gort enthu kias hu noe so much man. so i did nort nid to tink or say aniting :X wahahaha. i wanted to giv a cheer bud.. hear deirs den i tink my xun lar. so i jus diam diam. hahaha.

den we headed to d camp site which is at labrador. learnt camp songs n painted our grp flag. it was my first tym hearing such camp songs n i was so blur. its reli veri diff from dose i've heard b4. d person hu came up wid it, one word. POWER! (do i sound noob?) haha. oh ya n we took a grp pic. den played 5 diff games. spider-web. i lyk d feeling of ppl carrying me into d small hole. so ci ji n song sia. im jus lyk a queen xD den balancing on d see-saw. trust fall. i lyk dat. so fun. anione wanna try? hahaha. den it was d rope game. dun reli lyk it cos it was hard n i kip on tio scratch by d rope. lastly was rock climbing. okay la cos obs did b4. yeah. overall fun lar (:

afta dat we headed to town for games. was excited bud it was raining. toot* (i hate walking/running in d rain) summor i niao ji. bud wadeva~ to show dat im zai enough i jus chiong. everyone chiong to clark quay d fountain dere n do d cls dance aka billybanja. so chaotic sia. haha. bud i was loving it. den had to run all d way to esplanade. oman. i cldnt run dat day. afta nort exercising for almost half a yr i lost my stamina plus my muscle leg hurts. im d only one in my grp hu cant run. freak mans. hate myself for being so useless. dere's 5 diff station of games bud all in diff places. so ya.. probs for me. bud luckily gort a medic in my grp n oso my mama (wanwei) gav me support n encouragement which made me completed d run. zai bo. lol (im nort bhb im proud of myself okay!). wahaha xD d games were okay. howeva, we oways cant complete d games on tym so dere's forfeit. rmb d first forfeit was passing a ping pong ball mouth to mouth from a guy den to a ger till d last person. gosh. i almost cried doin it sia. bud i still did it. lol. i jus closed my eyes n take it nth had happen. haha. out of d 5 forfeits, 4 of it was similar to d first bud diff items. LOL! im immune to it afta d 2nd one. ahhaha. den gort to noe our gu po, papa n mama fren i tink. she's one crazy n funny person. haha.

day 2/ april fool. camp chief (arens) said today break camp. at first everyone didnt believe cos its april fool's! den he said he wasnt joking n his faced turned so serious. i almost cried sia. lol. i mean i hven had enough fun nor bonded well wid all my grp mates yet den suddenly say tis. in d end it was a big fat outrageous crappy lie. wah lao eh. make me so sad for no reason. haha. afta eating we went to d hall to learn mor camp songs. bud i wasnt dat enthu n high yets. im kipping it for campfire in d nite. lol. i love campfires! i will go high n siao one. haha.

so we had our wet n dirty games (dun xiang wai). one of d games was seriously crazy. d rolling game. omg lor. rolling on d mat wid 5 ppl is pure insane can. summor mus do it wid guys. if 3 or 4 ppl i tink it will be much betta n of cos ezier. haha. n i love one of d forfeit. eating biscuits wid maggie chilli. yummy~ lol. n i will nv forget tis forfeit. making us look lyk geishas. u noe d white face wid rosy cheeks n thick red lips. it made me look fugly. haha. wonder hu's d smart fellow hu came up wid tis idea. afta all d wet games, we had a mass one wid d 4 otha grps. i nv wld imagined dat dey wld play wid eggs, flour, soya sauce, vinegar n wadeva tings u can tink of when u COOK! n yes we gort fuck dirty n smelly. bud d process to get d food items was mor agonizing. a 5 mins game was drag ova a period of 1hr jus to get d stuffs.

campfire tym! *YAY!~ it took quite sum tym to set up d sound system. yen u sld be dere sia. u MES can help leh. lol. den arens suddenly sounded so refined. cldnt take it cos so jia. haha. i kept on luffing till stomach pian sia. so aniwaes, d gls stalled tym by shouting lots of echo cheers. we sing n sing n sing sing n sing. so fun. i felt lyk i was on drugs. lol. chao high can. bud d ppl beside me buay high. common campfire lehs!!! den dere was tis shims competition. i had no idea wad it was at first. so each grp had to select a guy representative n get him dolled up. so while waiting for dem, we sang songs blah blah blah. soon d moment we hv been waiting for.. d shims were all rdy to do deir walks. sum were ''hot" sum lyk aunties. lol. howeva, d judges (seniors) were supa sick n horny. to tink dey ask d shims to do sex positions or wadsoeva gross acts wid d seniors. bud it was reli entertaining n funny la xD den d last shim (KAZAI papa) came out. it was hilarious. he wore a real bikini. so ''SEXY''. lol. thunderous cheers n claps kept ongoin for him n even d gls went to ''worship'' him. ahahaha. den he had to la ji issac (senior) bud dey nv do it. y?! haha. den we campers had to vote for d best shim by cheering d loudest for whoeva u wan it to be. n d shim of d yr was KAZAI papa. it was all planned n obvious dat he wld win la. lol. den we had a grp hug n sang d barney song to papa n mama. n kissed deir cheeks. *AWWW~ honestly d campfire was a BLAST! i love it loads! <333 :)))))

day 3/ afta campfire was ard 2am. we still had a nite treasure hunt at labrador park. i was lyk u gotta be kidding. so had a briefing on it. oman. it was a damn (x10) long tok. hear till wanna slp liao lor. so long-winded. lol. say wad to do if u see ang zhang dong xi. cos dere is whr world war 2 take place. in d end go dere d park so nice. ahhaha. feel lyk killing him. make me so scared for no reason. d hunt was exhausting cos d park sibei big. d way dey kept d light sticks wanna find can die sia. bud in d end we found almost all. 17 out of 20. reach bak d camp site almost 6am. only had 3hrs of slp. i look lyk a panda now.

had our breakfast den proceeded to d court yard for forfeits to get bak our flag n water bottle. of cos d forfeit aint hard bud disgusting la. seniors r horny kias. haha. gers hv to exchg d positions of d apple n pear thru d guy pants. bud i didnt did it. nort everyone did it cos of d lack of tym. hohoho. afta which we had a captain ball competition. bud i didnt get to play too. many didnt had d chance to play thou. d gls n seniors played lyk basketball players sia. so cool. if only it was a basketball match. it will be mor ci ji n i wld love to see it mor xD

afta d match we headed bak to sp for a closing speech, do survey, prize presentation, sang linger - a veri touching n sad song n d gls did deir cheer. i love deir cheer! veri creative n nice. oh well, ZEPHAS gort d most kawaii grp. lol. i dun even noe y. best female camper was jingen from our grp. i tot it wld be melissa. best male camper was from KAZAI. triple H d wrestler. lol. den we get into our own grps n say our feelings abt d camp. i didnt reli say aniting cos i shy :X lol. aniwae im saying it in my blog now ma. haha. den we did billybanja again tgt wid d seniors, exchged our contacts n received a photo frame made by papa n mama tgt wid d photo we took. i look ugly in it sia. lol. wanted to go dinner wid dem bud dey chose to go to jurong east. nort fang bian wid d heavy bags. if amk i go liao lor. jus realise dat most sp students stay at/near jurong area. lol.

d camp was reli great, crazy, fantabulous, mad, exciting, fun, insane, high, blah blah blah... to many words to describe it. its sumting i nv did b4 so its a brand new experience for me. since its only my 3rd tym camping. LOL. thou i didnt giv in all my highness, my soul n effort to noe my kias xD, i still enjoyed d camp veri much! im so glad dat i went for d camp n came bak wid no regrets!

TO ZEPHAS - thou i dun reli noe u guys veri well bud i can say u guys r fabulous, sweet, gort balls (daring), helpful, high, enthu, lame (d jokes urr tell damn cold sia) n fun to be wid! :)

TO PAPA N MAMA - thou i oso dun reli noe u guys veri well, lol, both of urr r d greatest gls. im surprise dat urr can lead so well n make us bond so fast. mama urr d cutest ger gl dere. haha. n papa urr d guy wid d least hair dere. lol. aniwae, thks for everyting. u guys r d best! [:

ZEPHAS is d highest n zai-est grp! WE ROCK! wahahaha. i love u guys loads <333 :))))) reli missed d tyms we had tgt n d camp itself. stay in touch guys! :)

FO CAMP KICKED ASS!! xD~

feel lyk joining cls club suddenly. d ppl dere r so fun n crazy. I LIKE! haha. bud dat wasnt my first choice cca. oso i no leadership skills. mus noe how to organize events all dose. sure veri hard to fit in one.

i noe tis is a freaking long entry. bud i didnt say every single ting. its reli to much to say la. chan wei yen dun slp afta u read hor. haha. tell u mor when we go out! bud when's our nxt outing or even 6SENSE outing? or how abt organizing a 4A outing nxt mth during pei pei burfday? lol. i seriously miss u guys loads man!
7:52 PM

ZHIYANG WON CAMPUS SUPERSTAR! he deserves it. he so cute n smart n can sing. wah seh. bth. lols. finally saw yuyang. so shuai can xD aniwae, jus came bak from FO camp today. update abt it anotha day bah. it's gonna be a veri long entry. so many tings to say n crap. haha. till den im off to my comfy bed afta nort slping on it for 2 days. MAN IM GONNA SLP F WELL SIA! :D
11:53 PM